Hello. My name is Jessica, and I’m an introvert who likes big cities. I’m a 19-year-old neuroscience major from Middlebury College, and I’ll be studying abroad in Stockholm, Sweden for the next four months. Here will be my documentation of that time. And since WordPress knows what it’s doing, I’ll keep the default blog post title.
I’m sitting in a brightly lit room. Two suitcases lay flat open on the ground. Clothes, clean, are strewn across the room — some on the bed, some on the couch, but the majority in a single haphazard pile on top of the suitcase. The short packing list DIS has given me has been very helpful. I’ve already halved the number of items I’m bringing along. Still, it’ll take me the next few hours to finish packing, and right now I deserve a break.
For the past months that I’ve known I’d be going to Stockholm, I’ve been over the moon. Rather than what might be the burden of responsibility and independence, there’s more of a feeling of freedom and freshness forthcoming. Lately though, I’ve been feeling the nerves more. The butterflies in my stomach are turning into rocks, and maybe it’s more of a sense of dread, although I don’t want to call it that.
Packing has forced me to try to envision my next four months, and suddenly every insecurity that’s been hiding in that persistent fog of excitement is coming to the forefront of my mind. Will I fit in with my homestay? How will I commute? Will I be able to make friends? What will the classes be like? How can I make the most out of being in Stockholm?
But although the what and the how aren’t clear yet, the why is. I’m going to Stockholm to experience the city. Live more independently. Meet new people. A few pre-departure nerves haven’t quite managed to dull my excitement. I can’t wait to see everything that Sweden has to offer and more! For now though, I think I’ll get back to packing.